[ i'm glad we are all having solitary trauma breakdown experiences. this does not need to be a communal experience.
damien watches the rest of these deaths unfold, still frozen. all he does is make out a sort of choked sound at the back of his throat.
he understands the way that people move when they aren't in control of themselves. it's a little bit groggy, a little bit sleepy. they obey like it's subconscious, but it's not their subconscious.
but he doesn't want this. so why is it happening? this isn't how things are supposed to work.
"when I was resistant, she would tell me that if I didn’t exercise my power, it would rot me from the inside out."
is that what happened? but how can it be his fault? it can't be. it's not his fault, because he didn't want this. and if you don't want something, there's no follow-through.
if you don't want it bad enough, the control doesn't hold. ]
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damien watches the rest of these deaths unfold, still frozen. all he does is make out a sort of choked sound at the back of his throat.
he understands the way that people move when they aren't in control of themselves. it's a little bit groggy, a little bit sleepy. they obey like it's subconscious, but it's not their subconscious.
but he doesn't want this. so why is it happening? this isn't how things are supposed to work.
"when I was resistant, she would tell me that if I didn’t exercise my power, it would rot me from the inside out."
is that what happened? but how can it be his fault? it can't be. it's not his fault, because he didn't want this. and if you don't want something, there's no follow-through.
if you don't want it bad enough, the control doesn't hold. ]