[Deep down, Atsushi has always been a coward. The world is a scary place, and it's so easy to cry and run away from the hard parts of life. Even if he's told himself over and over again that he has to be the one to stand up and help others, it's so hard to do. And in moments like this, he just can't.
The Headmaster's words are ringing in his ears as he runs out the door and collapses to his knees just outside of it. 'You're worthless! Someone like you has no place in this world!' That man is dead and gone now, but his words still haunt Atsushi's every move. What good is he if he can't overcome his fears and save others? Dazai is dead, those other three who were up on stage are dead, but three more people need saving right now. What right does he have to even be here if he's just going to cry?
But the sadness is overwhelming, and he can't do anything else at the moment. He just hugs Charles and presses his face against Charles' black fur to quiet his sobbing.
He knows his friends(?) are in there and he has to help them, but he can't yet. Not until he gets a hold of these sads.]
cw: past child abuse
The Headmaster's words are ringing in his ears as he runs out the door and collapses to his knees just outside of it. 'You're worthless! Someone like you has no place in this world!' That man is dead and gone now, but his words still haunt Atsushi's every move. What good is he if he can't overcome his fears and save others? Dazai is dead, those other three who were up on stage are dead, but three more people need saving right now. What right does he have to even be here if he's just going to cry?
But the sadness is overwhelming, and he can't do anything else at the moment. He just hugs Charles and presses his face against Charles' black fur to quiet his sobbing.
He knows his friends(?) are in there and he has to help them, but he can't yet. Not until he gets a hold of these sads.]