[oh. this is really sweet, and you'll get a little swell of a touched emotion, a lot of fondness mixed with sadness.]

...Maybe you're right about that. Maybe I've been - missing out on something. It feels like if I try to poke into it, all I'll do is lose something but. It could be I'm losing something else by not discovering that thing.

Huh. You've got an interesting way of seeing things, Nogiku.