he knows it is, but it's too raw, and it feels too big. thinking about it too long makes his chest hurt, makes it hard to breathe. the future is so uncertain and it feels like he's adrift at sea, with only half-memories and unsteady footing. a girl he liked died, a girl he considered a sister died, and now he's sitting here - with two men he's started to think of as family. people he'd do anything for.
you shall not have to be, now. it's the warmest he's felt, since thursday. he loves them both.]
... You guys are gonna leave someday, though. [he mumbles, swallowing hard.] So maybe it's better if I forget.
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he knows it is, but it's too raw, and it feels too big. thinking about it too long makes his chest hurt, makes it hard to breathe. the future is so uncertain and it feels like he's adrift at sea, with only half-memories and unsteady footing. a girl he liked died, a girl he considered a sister died, and now he's sitting here - with two men he's started to think of as family. people he'd do anything for.
you shall not have to be, now. it's the warmest he's felt, since thursday. he loves them both.]
... You guys are gonna leave someday, though. [he mumbles, swallowing hard.] So maybe it's better if I forget.