Week 6 cyoa: hei, jiuqing, vin, and kashuu

[saturations]

spoiler warnings: ff14 heavensward and some light endwalker elements
content warnings: violence, death, war, terrorism (short), brief mentions/references for eyegore, brief mention/reference for decapitation, depression, suicidal ideation (nihilist flavor), suicide, dragons and monsters eating people

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[disestablishment]

This is what we want.

[ Monokuma Kashuu speaks this calmly like before, like he has accepted this. They can be without emotions. They don't need to hurt, but then when Kashuu keeps saying he wants to go back, the copy falters a bit.

And the void it glitches, to show all of Kashuu's sad past, even gruesome and hurtful thing that has transpired in his long sword life, including here in the Prism. ]

We... We don't want to go back. We... Don't want to go back to a world takes love away from us.

[ He says that, but there's a crack in this copy that Kashuu can easily see. This is his mirror, after all. He can see, here and now, that this copy needs reassurance.

... Kashuu himself needs that reassurance.

Another voice comes, ushering Kashuu to not lose hope: "When you broke, I wanted to be by your side. Even if I couldn't have done anything. Even if it didn't change anything."

He must fight this. He must not succumb. ]

[slashay]

[If anything, this is something he can do. He's spent over half a millennia not succumbing, after all. No matter what agonies he sees, what painful things he's forced to witness, what he has to live out and endure and suffer through over and over again... He has never fallen to the weight of his own misery.

Now won't be any different.

...But it's hard, isn't it? To push forward alone. There must be some part of him, then, that knows this. That wants to hide from the suffering. That doesn't want to have love, only to lose it. Maybe it's okay for that part to exist, even if it's ugly, even if it's unpleasant.

He's quiet for a second, sitting with his thoughts and with his painfully human heart.]

--We do. We wanna go back. Even if it hurts, even if life is scary and sad... It's been worth it all these years, hasn't it? We kept going after all this time.

[Not even death could stop him.]

Let's go. Yasusada's waiting... Everyone's waiting.

[disestablishment]

[ ... This Kashuu's face scrunches because the self-loathing is so much, but his shoulders shake. The words settle on him, still. As he shuts his eyes, no tears well, but his color returns.

This black void—it blooms with flowers. ]

... They're waiting for us.

[ This Kashuu disappears. In this test of wills, Kashuu overcame his despair. ]