[ the thunder doesn't scare vax. nothing really does, besides - well, what scared her, too. that feeling of losing his sister is the only thing in the world that has pushed him to the brink. this could have been him. this was, him, when he threw everything away for vex. when he lashed out at percy for causing it, when it was just a mistake. this is pain made violent. it's ugly, and he knows it.
vax stands his ground. not the first time he's faced down a god.
(and, emotion share makes this even more, doesn't it. he's not angry - a little, maybe, but it's tainted with anguish and understanding. much different than looking at vecna. this is looking into a mirror, albeit one so much more powerful, with so much more responsibility, than he could ever have.) ] Nothing's going to bring her back. Not even watching people - never die, it's just going to make it worse, because your sister's never going to fucking be there, Ei!
[ there's his own hurt in there, too.
knowing he's going to watch, from a distance, as vex'ahlia lives out her life - happy, happy she's safe, loved, happy she'll have a wonderful future ahead of her but knowing he caused her so much pain, and knowing he'll never be able to experience it with her. vax is on the other side of this, banging desperately on the glass when he shouldn't even be allowed out of the enclosure. he's the one who left. ]
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[ the thunder doesn't scare vax. nothing really does, besides - well, what scared her, too. that feeling of losing his sister is the only thing in the world that has pushed him to the brink. this could have been him. this was, him, when he threw everything away for vex. when he lashed out at percy for causing it, when it was just a mistake. this is pain made violent. it's ugly, and he knows it.
vax stands his ground. not the first time he's faced down a god.
(and, emotion share makes this even more, doesn't it. he's not angry - a little, maybe, but it's tainted with anguish and understanding. much different than looking at vecna. this is looking into a mirror, albeit one so much more powerful, with so much more responsibility, than he could ever have.) ] Nothing's going to bring her back. Not even watching people - never die, it's just going to make it worse, because your sister's never going to fucking be there, Ei!
[ there's his own hurt in there, too.
knowing he's going to watch, from a distance, as vex'ahlia lives out her life - happy, happy she's safe, loved, happy she'll have a wonderful future ahead of her but knowing he caused her so much pain, and knowing he'll never be able to experience it with her. vax is on the other side of this, banging desperately on the glass when he shouldn't even be allowed out of the enclosure. he's the one who left. ]