[is he even worried about judgment at this point? he's not sure. he's genuinely not sure how to feel about it because it's just a horrible rat's nest of emotions sort of tangled in his chest that he can't (or doesn't want to) dislodge. not while everything's happening. not while there's still a mission going on. not while they have a problem they have to control.
but...a few people already know some of this. and maybe at least verbalizing it might actually help slightly.
or at least he can say it and try to move on.]
...before coming here, I could turn back time. And I did that a couple of times, usually to help save people. But I remember the last time I did it, that was really the last time.
The city was saved, but...none of my friends made it back with me. Including Bass.
[sometimes you just have an immense amount of survivor's guilt that keeps enhancing as people die and people get hurt and people you care about are hurt because people die.]
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but...a few people already know some of this. and maybe at least verbalizing it might actually help slightly.
or at least he can say it and try to move on.]
...before coming here, I could turn back time. And I did that a couple of times, usually to help save people. But I remember the last time I did it, that was really the last time.
The city was saved, but...none of my friends made it back with me. Including Bass.
[sometimes you just have an immense amount of survivor's guilt that keeps enhancing as people die and people get hurt and people you care about are hurt because people die.]