[ that's fine - it's not, really, it's not fine, because it fucking sucks to see riff just break down like this, breaks his heart into a thousand pieces, but he can break down. it's safe, here, in his own apartment, and - hopefully, with vax, too.
his other wing comes up like a barrier, blocking out the outside for a moment, and he just grabs rindo and pulls him in. this time, it's for a hug, full on, fierce and loving and safe. solid. he just wraps him up and takes a big, deep breath, steady, in, and out, in, and out.
he knows how close riff was to meteion. he knows, how much that memory and that guilt must be weighing on him. vax knows because he's been there, walked that exact same path, held those exact same sadnesses, but he always leaked them free at the seams. it makes it easier for him to know when someone else is trying to bottle it all away: you can't always just hide from those feelings. god knows he used to try. ]
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his other wing comes up like a barrier, blocking out the outside for a moment, and he just grabs rindo and pulls him in. this time, it's for a hug, full on, fierce and loving and safe. solid. he just wraps him up and takes a big, deep breath, steady, in, and out, in, and out.
he knows how close riff was to meteion. he knows, how much that memory and that guilt must be weighing on him. vax knows because he's been there, walked that exact same path, held those exact same sadnesses, but he always leaked them free at the seams. it makes it easier for him to know when someone else is trying to bottle it all away: you can't always just hide from those feelings. god knows he used to try. ]