[it's not fine! it's really not, especially when he's in his own house and this isn't what he meant to do especially when vax has a very valid point, but also. sometimes you are still fifteen years old and you are once again made aware of how much you actually don't have control over.
on the one hand, he doesn't resist the movement for once, planting himself into vax and trying to figure out what to do with his hands to make himself stop crying or return the hug or do something. it's a little hard to follow the pattern at first, disjointed breaths in and not enough out.
it was a lot easier when he had something else to focus on and he could ignore everything to think about his own stupid memories later. bottling wasn't even always on purpose, really, just something he did when other people were hurting and when he didn't want to rock the boat and make things uneasy. but here, he doesn't get much of a choice.
it takes a little bit to regain his footing, even if he's well-aware he's crying and now would like to descend straight to hell as to not be perceived, but his breathing evens out into the same pattern vax is giving him. he also doesn't bother to move for a second.]
This...wasn't meant to happen.
[it's quiet, but at least it's a little steadier.]
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on the one hand, he doesn't resist the movement for once, planting himself into vax and trying to figure out what to do with his hands to make himself stop crying or return the hug or do something. it's a little hard to follow the pattern at first, disjointed breaths in and not enough out.
it was a lot easier when he had something else to focus on and he could ignore everything to think about his own stupid memories later. bottling wasn't even always on purpose, really, just something he did when other people were hurting and when he didn't want to rock the boat and make things uneasy. but here, he doesn't get much of a choice.
it takes a little bit to regain his footing, even if he's well-aware he's crying and now would like to descend straight to hell as to not be perceived, but his breathing evens out into the same pattern vax is giving him. he also doesn't bother to move for a second.]
This...wasn't meant to happen.
[it's quiet, but at least it's a little steadier.]