I think because... Everything in life's got to have some kind of balance. Good stuff, bad stuff. Shit that hurts, shit that doesn't. Life, death, all of it. It's the way of things. Sometimes it's shitty and unfair and pointless. Sometimes it's fucking amazing.
It took me a long time to stop just Existing. Going from place to place and surviving. Never had any purpose until I met *my* team. I know now I'd rather hurt than just exist. I learned to lean on the people that I love when I needed it, maybe especially when I didn't want to. Decided to send a big middle finger to all the awful stuff in my life and keep moving forward, even when everything totally fell apart. Even now that I know I'll never see them again, or - at least not for centuries, for most of them, they're still with me. So I think I don't ever really make it hurt less. I think I just love, more. Balance it out. I told Bass the same thing. It's better to love and lose than to never have loved at all.
I know you lost everything, and I know you're still trying to remember. I know it's fucking scary as hell. We're here for you too, you know. If you go back to that world, and you've got all this stuff going on with death, I can think of a matron who'd want a champion to go check that shit out. I'm not going anywhere. Neither is anyone else you've met, here. Even if we're not right next to you, we're still with you.
[ also wow, rindo, weekly murder? who would do that!!! whomst
the second part's answer is succinct after the Vax Pep Talk (TM) because he knows riff gets it. he doesn't need to harp on it. ]
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Everything in life's got to have some kind of balance.
Good stuff, bad stuff. Shit that hurts, shit that doesn't.
Life, death, all of it. It's the way of things.
Sometimes it's shitty and unfair and pointless.
Sometimes it's fucking amazing.
It took me a long time to stop just
Existing. Going from place to place and surviving. Never had any purpose until I met *my* team.
I know now I'd rather hurt than just exist.
I learned to lean on the people that I love when I needed it, maybe especially when I didn't want to. Decided to send a big middle finger to all the awful stuff in my life and keep moving forward, even when everything totally fell apart.
Even now that I know I'll never see them again, or - at least not for centuries, for most of them, they're still with me.
So I think I don't ever really make it hurt less. I think I just love, more. Balance it out.
I told Bass the same thing.
It's better to love and lose than to never have loved at all.
I know you lost everything, and I know you're still trying to remember.
I know it's fucking scary as hell.
We're here for you too, you know. If you go back to that world, and you've got all this stuff going on with death, I can think of a matron who'd want a champion to go check that shit out.
I'm not going anywhere. Neither is anyone else you've met, here. Even if we're not right next to you, we're still with you.
[ also wow, rindo, weekly murder? who would do that!!! whomst
the second part's answer is succinct after the Vax Pep Talk (TM) because he knows riff gets it. he doesn't need to harp on it. ]
I know you do.