[ he wrinkles his nose. it's not that he's particularly hard to read, especially not in situations like this - but he doesn't like it being pointed out like that. DO YOU HAVE TO SAY IT, SHALE? ]
It's like being swept down a river and trying to grab hold of something.
[ it's why he fights so hard and pushes back so much. yeah, he's an asshole, but he just wants to have something and have it be his. being pushed along, blindly believing in everything he was raised, having no say in his future or his actions... it's tough. frustrating. true freedom is being unshackled from his "destiny," and while he's doing everything in his meager power to break free, he kind of. isn't really sure if that's something achievable.
[sorry, but reading people and pointing things out just happens to be one of his hobbies. they look at malik, watching him.]
You know, the way I've always seen it...someone - a god, or something else, anyone - might have picked out one fate for you. But you don't know that that's the only fate someone has in mind. Maybe that river is inevitable, but it might not be going where you think it is.
I can't prepare for something if I don't know where I'm going.
[ at the end of it all, it's the uncertainty that gets him. it's why he likes shale so much; shale is stable. shale is grounded. there's no twists and turns and insecurity when they have these little talks. funny how he hates tradition and stifling predictability - but what he really wants is security. ]
[that's the part that's hard about it. anyway, he likes malik, too. he's always been polite and thoughtful to him, despite bragging about mind control powers, and shale has a soft spot for works in progress.]
You can try, but there will always be things you can't anticipate.
Very wise. Whether we like it or not has no bearing on it, but that doesn't mean there isn't value in trying to remember what's important to us even when we're being carried away by the current.
[this is a very generous interpretation of malik's sullen teenage angst...]
[ he nods, more on board with that interpretation - he can still justify his vengeanace - but something still doesn't sit quite right with him. maybe it's just his teen moodiness. ]
I suppose I can't disagree... Even if those things get swept away too, we can still remember. I guess.
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I wish I didn't.
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It's like being swept down a river and trying to grab hold of something.
[ it's why he fights so hard and pushes back so much. yeah, he's an asshole, but he just wants to have something and have it be his. being pushed along, blindly believing in everything he was raised, having no say in his future or his actions... it's tough. frustrating. true freedom is being unshackled from his "destiny," and while he's doing everything in his meager power to break free, he kind of. isn't really sure if that's something achievable.
but he has to try. ]
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[sorry, but reading people and pointing things out just happens to be one of his hobbies. they look at malik, watching him.]
You know, the way I've always seen it...someone - a god, or something else, anyone - might have picked out one fate for you. But you don't know that that's the only fate someone has in mind. Maybe that river is inevitable, but it might not be going where you think it is.
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I can't prepare for something if I don't know where I'm going.
[ at the end of it all, it's the uncertainty that gets him. it's why he likes shale so much; shale is stable. shale is grounded. there's no twists and turns and insecurity when they have these little talks. funny how he hates tradition and stifling predictability - but what he really wants is security. ]
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[that's the part that's hard about it. anyway, he likes malik, too. he's always been polite and thoughtful to him, despite bragging about mind control powers, and shale has a soft spot for works in progress.]
You can try, but there will always be things you can't anticipate.
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That doesn't mean I have to like it, though.
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[this is a very generous interpretation of malik's sullen teenage angst...]
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I suppose I can't disagree... Even if those things get swept away too, we can still remember. I guess.
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We can still remember.
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Maybe the others should get some grave keeping experience too. Learn what that really means.
[ he thinks he's funny. anyway-- ]
It's always nice to chat, Shale.
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[stubbornly pretending that's what malik means. it's fine.]
I like chatting with you, too, Malik.