[ this memory leaves him feeling...warm, really, and what bass says does, too.
he laughs a little - it's always so strange, to have your life put on display in front of others, to have people see you just falling apart at the seams - but bass's point is a good one. ] ...Yeah. She is. Pickle's amazing.
[ the affection is open and honest in his voice - he really does admire her, really does look up to her, even now. though...some of that warmth shifts into something bittersweet, and vax nods. ]
... it was. She - [ even now, it's hard to talk about. even now, as something close to a human again here, as a revenant, maybe as a celestial someday, vax will dream of that night. ] .. she died. I offered the Raven Queen my soul in exchange for hers.
[ they can absolutely do that, vax is a great emotional support bird. he shifts a little to make sure they're comfy, but otherwise stays steady, still a little in the memory.
at the comment, vax - huffs, a little and says, honestly, wryly: ] I was fucking terrified.
[ of what? not of the exchange - of losing vex, more than anything his first blush instinct was courage, but when the wind in his sails faded and vex'ahlia was safe, he was alone in his thoughts, in the moment of what did i just do. ] Maybe not right then, but afterwards - 's like I said. I was a fucking mess.
Think maybe being brave's just about doing stuff anyway, though. Maybe it's just not thinking.
[it's partially for them, but more for him, leaning. they're a good emotional support dog, really.]
Nah, I was gonna say the same thing. [they nudge him a little.] I think just going for it, whatever seems like the right thing to do and not thinking... I think that's brave.
Riff thinks it's stupid to just do stuff without thinking about all the angles, but that's not really how I work, I don't think.
he laughs at the nudge, and returns it. relaxed, really, after that memory. ]
Maybe that's why you two are so close, yeah? [ riff and bass being besties is nice to hear about, too, considering his conversation with riff earlier. ] Balance each other out.
Percy's like that, too. Keeps us from dying, half the time. Some of the time.
[well, now i feel bad because they're gonna have to deal with another bubble in a second here.]
... Yeah, that's a good point. Balance is good. [a little smile.] Usually Riff yells at me to stop running. That kinda sounds like a Percy thing, haha.
Yeah, well, he's run in to do plenty of stupid shit on his own, too. Don't think too highly of him.
[ this is teasing, too, in the way that you have to dunk on someone you basically consider your brother. as vax is saying this, he glances over, though, and sees the bubble. ]
Ah, shit - [ and reaches up like he's going to touch it again? ]
[they say, reaching to grab his wrist. a pause, and then they slide up to tap the bubble with a little yellow-orange shiver. a memory plays, from that timestamp to 2:06:37. however, all the names and faces are blurred out except for the red head girl's. haha! wild!]
the girl's assessment of bass is not off - that they shine, so brightly. he can see it here, too - can't all of them?- and for a moment, the heavy weight of bass's grief weighs hard on his shoulders as he blinks free of the memory and back into reality.
before he's even really realizing it - he knows that bass has his wrist - he shifts his hand free to reach over and hug him. ]
[they say, after a moment. for now they're going to just let him hold on, because that feels better than not. they're okay, though. they're... they're fine.]
She seemed pretty great, right? [they say.] I don't remember a lot else about her other than what you just saw.
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... She sounds like someone I'd wanna be around all the time. [they say, quietly. feels like everybody could use a pike in their life, huh.]
It was for your sister? Why you died, I mean.
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he laughs a little - it's always so strange, to have your life put on display in front of others, to have people see you just falling apart at the seams - but bass's point is a good one. ] ...Yeah. She is. Pickle's amazing.
[ the affection is open and honest in his voice - he really does admire her, really does look up to her, even now. though...some of that warmth shifts into something bittersweet, and vax nods. ]
... it was. She - [ even now, it's hard to talk about. even now, as something close to a human again here, as a revenant, maybe as a celestial someday, vax will dream of that night. ] .. she died. I offered the Raven Queen my soul in exchange for hers.
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... That's pretty brave. [in their opinion.] I dunno if I would've been able to do something like that.
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at the comment, vax - huffs, a little and says, honestly, wryly: ] I was fucking terrified.
[ of what? not of the exchange - of losing vex, more than anything his first blush instinct was courage, but when the wind in his sails faded and vex'ahlia was safe, he was alone in his thoughts, in the moment of what did i just do. ] Maybe not right then, but afterwards - 's like I said. I was a fucking mess.
Think maybe being brave's just about doing stuff anyway, though. Maybe it's just not thinking.
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Nah, I was gonna say the same thing. [they nudge him a little.] I think just going for it, whatever seems like the right thing to do and not thinking... I think that's brave.
Riff thinks it's stupid to just do stuff without thinking about all the angles, but that's not really how I work, I don't think.
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he laughs at the nudge, and returns it. relaxed, really, after that memory. ]
Maybe that's why you two are so close, yeah? [ riff and bass being besties is nice to hear about, too, considering his conversation with riff earlier. ] Balance each other out.
Percy's like that, too. Keeps us from dying, half the time. Some of the time.
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... Yeah, that's a good point. Balance is good. [a little smile.] Usually Riff yells at me to stop running. That kinda sounds like a Percy thing, haha.
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Yeah, well, he's run in to do plenty of stupid shit on his own, too. Don't think too highly of him.
[ this is teasing, too, in the way that you have to dunk on someone you basically consider your brother. as vax is saying this, he glances over, though, and sees the bubble. ]
Ah, shit - [ and reaches up like he's going to touch it again? ]
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[they say, reaching to grab his wrist. a pause, and then they slide up to tap the bubble with a little yellow-orange shiver. a memory plays, from that timestamp to 2:06:37. however, all the names and faces are blurred out except for the red head girl's. haha! wild!]
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... it's a hard memory to watch.
the girl's assessment of bass is not off - that they shine, so brightly. he can see it here, too - can't all of them?- and for a moment, the heavy weight of bass's grief weighs hard on his shoulders as he blinks free of the memory and back into reality.
before he's even really realizing it - he knows that bass has his wrist - he shifts his hand free to reach over and hug him. ]
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... Sorry that sucked. [they say, in a small voice.]
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[ this is almost immediate, low and quiet, and squeezes them a little tighter. ] I'm sorry, that you had to go through that. For your loss.
[ the "not again" echoes, too, though he doesn't say anything about that, for now. ]
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[they say, after a moment. for now they're going to just let him hold on, because that feels better than not. they're okay, though. they're... they're fine.]
She seemed pretty great, right? [they say.] I don't remember a lot else about her other than what you just saw.