…I don’t know what I should be telling all of you to do. I keep telling you what a bad feeling I get from all of us, but I don’t believe it’s my place to tell you to stop. Or, perhaps it’s that I’m afraid if I did, you wouldn’t ask me about these things anymore. A lot fewer of you do, now, and maybe we’re to blame for that.
A good friend of mine told me that maybe I should just try to be a less of a busybody and listen a little more, so that’s what I’ll try to do. But if you’re talking about contacting Dreamer on purpose, I can’t help but worry.
he listens for a moment, watching those mushrooms, mouth pulling into a frown. ]
...That - I didn't really think that through. [ the. dreamer contacting. he looks down at the eyeball. this is not surprising behavior coming from vax who flips off gods. ] But, there are others, too - I told you, I'm all about looking for another way.
I don't want to resort to blood. That's not right. I want to find a way out of here that isn't their bullshit, but I know I want to find a way out, and it's not gonna happen by just letting things go by. I want to keep looking for different routes.
... You don't have to know everything, you know, Shale - even if it's unknown, we're just gonna all have to figure this out together. Right?
Sure, right. Or at least wait until all of you have realized how...pointless and destructive what you're doing is. Until then, I think I just need to let it go and hope you realize it on your own.
...I like you, Shale, I really do. Think you've got a good head on your shoulders, and I trust that about you a lot. For a lot of reasons. Hope maybe you'd trust that about me, too.
[ he reaches up and absently knocks a hand against his own chest, against his armor over his heart. their shared story, even if it's distant, is important. it's something vax has come to rely on over and over, here. ]
...You're willing to listen, like your friend said. Yeah? If nothing else.
I don't think trust is going to fix this, Vax. You see it as me not trusting you, and I see it as you not trusting me. One of us is wrong, or both of us, perhaps. But...this isn't something you can just ask me to change my opinion on.
But I am willing to try to listen to what you need.
I just ask you to think what it means, to come into someone else's home, to tell them that you think you know a better way to treat that home than they do, and to suggest that if they don't change their mind to match yours, they lack trust in you.
[not harshly, but sternly.]
If you're going to ask me to change my mind about my home, I'm going to need something else from you, not that. I am not refusing to hear you, but I'm not being convinced, either.
I don't know anything about Exandria. I don't know what it is. I know you've showed me some of it, but the word means nothing to me, it doesn't stir up any feelings, like...
[hmmm.]
I've never thought about "home" as something that can be summed up in terms of continents or maps.
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What I can't live with is doing nothing at all.
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…I don’t know what I should be telling all of you to do. I keep telling you what a bad feeling I get from all of us, but I don’t believe it’s my place to tell you to stop. Or, perhaps it’s that I’m afraid if I did, you wouldn’t ask me about these things anymore. A lot fewer of you do, now, and maybe we’re to blame for that.
A good friend of mine told me that maybe I should just try to be a less of a busybody and listen a little more, so that’s what I’ll try to do. But if you’re talking about contacting Dreamer on purpose, I can’t help but worry.
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he listens for a moment, watching those mushrooms, mouth pulling into a frown. ]
...That - I didn't really think that through. [ the. dreamer contacting. he looks down at the eyeball. this is not surprising behavior coming from vax who flips off gods. ] But, there are others, too - I told you, I'm all about looking for another way.
I don't want to resort to blood. That's not right. I want to find a way out of here that isn't their bullshit, but I know I want to find a way out, and it's not gonna happen by just letting things go by. I want to keep looking for different routes.
... You don't have to know everything, you know, Shale - even if it's unknown, we're just gonna all have to figure this out together. Right?
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Sure, right. Or at least wait until all of you have realized how...pointless and destructive what you're doing is. Until then, I think I just need to let it go and hope you realize it on your own.
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[ he reaches up and absently knocks a hand against his own chest, against his armor over his heart. their shared story, even if it's distant, is important. it's something vax has come to rely on over and over, here. ]
...You're willing to listen, like your friend said. Yeah? If nothing else.
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But I am willing to try to listen to what you need.
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he gives a little shrug, expression no less uneasy, shoulders a little hunched. ]
...'s all we can ask for. And - I'll try. To keep in mind what you're saying, too. I'll try.
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[not harshly, but sternly.]
If you're going to ask me to change my mind about my home, I'm going to need something else from you, not that. I am not refusing to hear you, but I'm not being convinced, either.
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... eventually, quietly: ]
... What about Exandria?
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[he seems a little caught off guard by the question.]
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[hmmm.]
I've never thought about "home" as something that can be summed up in terms of continents or maps.
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More like people?
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...As far as I see it, that's not likely to happen.
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