...im still learning i think thats what it all comes down to im scared and im still learning and i dont want to be alone when this is over so i guess...
["this isn't a game to play alone."
doesn't that apply here, too?]
im scared of people forgetting as soon as they leave like this place never existed and we never existed its easy to say now that people will be with us even when they leave but...i just have to trust u guys dont i
there's no pause for his messages at all - they come one after another. ]
I won't forget you. Can promise you that. ... That's something I've been dealing with, too. If I wanted to be remembered or not. Think being here made me realize I do.
...All I have when this is over is being remembered. So. You promise not to forget me, and I won't forget you either. And then I'll come find whoever caused you those problems in that stupid game and deliver them an ass kicking courtesy of the Raven Queen while we're at it. Sound good?
i said this to hot pants once wondering what was worse: not having people around and not remembering or not having them around and being the only one who remembers theres been so much confusion here about remembering things and what we should do if we should and how we should that i think...making the choice to want it is important for both of us right? its not like i could forget u even if i tried ...but ok keeping each other accountable and remembered until we meet again sounds good to me
[it's still scary!! and he's still a little unsure, but like. this does help. it's the start of maybe starting to accept that they really, really do have to change things.]
so as mentioned, it is in fact raining in shibuya. the lights are bright in the city, shops still open, people wandering through, but the blue door sits at the top of the stairs at the side of 104.
when vax comes in, the apartment's a little dark. there's thumping around in tora's room, like the tiger is occupying herself, and riff himself is bundled up in a blanket burrito on the couch with his phone and something playing on the tv. there's a small pile of records on the couch, salvaged from shalegate.]
...there's towels in the bathroom if you want to dry off.
[ yeah sometimes you just have a big emotional conversation and need to see someone irl!! phones are dumb actually
anyway, predictably, vax is soaking wet when he enters the door - he pulls his hood back, but otherwise doesn't seem to mind too much, trodding over boots and all with a, ] Nah.
[ and then just draping over riff over the top of the couch in a (wet) hug. ]
not that it matters. it doesn't matter because vax is draping over him and riff's arms are moving to return the gesture. sometimes you are emotionally tapped out but express appreciation anyway. ]
You're gonna have to explain this to me a hundred times over.
[ but as he releases, with a deep breath, in and out, he will go fetch a towel, toe out of his boots, and then come flop down on the couch next to him, grabbing for a blanket to toss it over them both fairly unceremoniously. ]
[subconsciously, maybe, he actually follows that breathing pattern for a second and then vax is off to get a towel. blankets...and a vax. he's pretty okay with this even as he's clicking through to start over from episode one.]
It's pretty easy if you just don't ask about all of the subplots and how many episodes there actually are.
[ as he's toweling off his hair and tosses the towel half assed on the ground (he'll pick it up later, probably) vax settles down, peering back at the tv. it's still just wild they can - watch shit like this, like it's nothing, frankly, let alone considering the idea of 'episodes' or 'subplots' so he just nods along. ]
Trust me, I'm not gonna ask. [ but otherwise, just pulls the blanket up and tucks them both sort of half in. time to be slugs on the couch and watch some alchemists. ] Let it roll.
[we can call this one a wrap because a lot of things are happening but this is just to establish that a.) he's letting himself lean against vax and b.) he will occasionally explain what's actually going on in each episode and vax doesn't get to leave for at least six episodes.]
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...im still learning
i think thats what it all comes down to
im scared and im still learning and i dont want to be alone when this is over
so i guess...
["this isn't a game to play alone."
doesn't that apply here, too?]
im scared of people forgetting as soon as they leave
like this place never existed and we never existed
its easy to say now that people will be with us even when they leave
but...i just have to trust u guys dont i
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there's no pause for his messages at all - they come one after another. ]
I won't forget you.
Can promise you that.
... That's something I've been dealing with, too.
If I wanted to be remembered or not.
Think being here made me realize I do.
...All I have when this is over is being remembered.
So. You promise not to forget me, and I won't forget you either.
And then I'll come find whoever caused you those problems in that stupid game and deliver them an ass kicking courtesy of the Raven Queen while we're at it.
Sound good?
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wondering what was worse: not having people around and not remembering or not having them around and being the only one who remembers
theres been so much confusion here about remembering things and what we should do
if we should and how we should
that i think...making the choice to want it is important
for both of us
right?
its not like i could forget u even if i tried
...but ok
keeping each other accountable and remembered until we meet again
sounds good to me
[it's still scary!! and he's still a little unsure, but like. this does help. it's the start of maybe starting to accept that they really, really do have to change things.]
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Yeah, it is.
I think so too.
Are you in your archway, right now?
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its raining
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[
he's coming over. ]
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should've expected that.
so as mentioned, it is in fact raining in shibuya. the lights are bright in the city, shops still open, people wandering through, but the blue door sits at the top of the stairs at the side of 104.
when vax comes in, the apartment's a little dark. there's thumping around in tora's room, like the tiger is occupying herself, and riff himself is bundled up in a blanket burrito on the couch with his phone and something playing on the tv. there's a small pile of records on the couch, salvaged from shalegate.]
...there's towels in the bathroom if you want to dry off.
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anyway, predictably, vax is soaking wet when he enters the door - he pulls his hood back, but otherwise doesn't seem to mind too much, trodding over boots and all with a, ] Nah.
[ and then just draping over riff over the top of the couch in a (wet) hug. ]
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not that it matters. it doesn't matter because vax is draping over him and riff's arms are moving to return the gesture. sometimes you are emotionally tapped out but express appreciation anyway. ]
...thanks.
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he just loops his arms around him kinda comfortably and squeezes, then rests his chin on his head. ]
Mhm.
[ and they can just sit like this, for a long, long minute. sometimes you know your son's been Goin Through It ]
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...wanna stay for a while? I can start over from the first episode.
[he may or may not be watching fma:b. but also don't go?]
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[ but as he releases, with a deep breath, in and out, he will go fetch a towel, toe out of his boots, and then come flop down on the couch next to him, grabbing for a blanket to toss it over them both fairly unceremoniously. ]
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It's pretty easy if you just don't ask about all of the subplots and how many episodes there actually are.
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Trust me, I'm not gonna ask. [ but otherwise, just pulls the blanket up and tucks them both sort of half in. time to be slugs on the couch and watch some alchemists. ] Let it roll.
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